A few days ago, I fell off the wagon. I fell into the Twitter hole. I used Twitter to read the news. I was in the Twitter hole for like a half hour. I didn't feel very good after I did this. I am really trying to stop. However, I am torn. I feel that in order to be a responsible citizen, I ought to read the news so I can be well informed. I re-installed it on my phone after someone I was interacting with in real life told me that they missed my humorous tweets. I was awakened to the fact that Twitter is a happier, funnier place when I Tweet, at least for some people. I did it for my fans, is what I am trying to say. I will try to be mindful so I don't fall down any more holes. I'm @demosure on Twitter, follow me and I'll follow you back!
I am still off the Facebook mostly, that's going good. Trying to use Facebook just to keep track of events going on and shows I can go to with my friends. I may log on and put a link to this blog post later tonight. I feel that this may be a helpful thing to put out to people on that platform. I installed Facebook Messenger on my phone for communication purposes. I feel that I am becoming a healthier social media user. I feel better when I actively create and produce content, instead of mindlessly consuming it.
I'm still using Instagram. I fall down the Instagram hole for about an hour every other day. I really like to look at pictures of interesting and pretty things! A lot of it is cool, weird, creative stuff that my friends are doing. I don't feel like I have a serious problem with Instagram. Yet. I sometimes find myself compelled to search for inspirational quotes on tranquil, awe-inspiring, nature-scapes. I search out the cheesiest shit, and I love it, and I guess I'm owning it. There. Also, Instagram is probably the best way to share with the world pictures of my cute kitty-cat, Mr. Bruce. Mr. Bruce is a transcendental being of light and love, my only roommate, and my spirit-animal teacher. He's really, really old and he's not going to be around very long. Why am I using my cat to rationalize my Instagram use if it's really okay? Hmmm. I will continue to monitor the situation.
*photo was taken by Sayed Alamy
I have been listening to music more and creating music more. I am looking to start a band. Seriously. For real. I took out an ad on Craigslist. Here is the link, it's a real hoot, funny, yet it comes from a real, authentic place:
So far no one has responded. But who knows? It's only been up for a day.
I bought an album using my Google play app today! I bought Bird-Brains by tUnE-yArDs. I love tUnE-yArDs. I have a huge crush on Merrill Garbus. omfg. Love her. So much. <3
I installed Snapchat on my phone. I feel so much more hip and edgy. Just kidding! Kind of! I saw a list of Snapchat friends, and then I sort of freaked out when I saw this one person's name. I went on two dates with them, before I realized they were a toxic person without empathy and not someone I wanted in my life. It was a teaching moment when I looked up how to block & delete (Un- Snap?) this person from my list. After I learned how to do this, I felt more confident and bold using this app. I am still a novice. I am still not very good at Snapchat. I am trying.
Things have been going really well. I took a look at what I needed to improve on, and I have been taking action to address this a little bit every day. Sometimes after a long day at work and I am feeling drained I will make excuses to myself not to do art or engage in my creative pursuits. "I'm tired!" "I need a night off!" "I need to recharge and not pressure myself to create stuff!"
I'm trying to get out of my own way so I can be myself better.